She wanted it to hurt. Isla had told her to take it easy, but Ellie was a pro at blocking out good advice. Yesterday, she'd been certain that it was alcohol that had taken an ax to her head, splitting synapses with searing hot-white pain.

It was an easy explanation. New Year's Eve parties and shady dwellings thereafter. At least...she assumed. Ellie remembered the Wallace party, remembered the ball dropping and kissing one too many strangers on her way out.

She'd stumbled in her high heels and had taken them off. The gravel of the road dug into her bare feet as she cursed at the lost GPS connection on her phone. Why had it seemed like a good idea to walk home with that much alcohol and weed in her system?

Per her MO, she'd squinted at the screen, flipping through her contacts until she found the familiar name. A picture of the street sign and a quick text of 'help' were the last she remembered.

The next morning, she'd woken up to broken memories and a bump on the back of her head. Adam, her roommate and knight in shining armor, dutifully ignored her. Ellie wondered how bad it had gotten when 12 hours and two meals passed by and he showed no sign of forgiveness.

It had been a while since she'd blacked out so badly. Had she even drunk that much? As the handful of aspirins she swallowed dulled the pain receivers, Ellie began to focus on the events of the night before.

The more she focused, the more slippery the memories became. Images flashed in silvery waves, fading away the moment she took a closer look. The only thing that she could distinguish was a sign. It stood in front of an old mansion that Ellie felt like she'd seen a thousand times, but couldn't place.

By 11PM on Friday, all she could tell was that the word 'Blood' was on the sign. She'd given up in frustration then, resigned to waiting for the silent treatment of her roommate to end, so she could get a clue on what had happened.

When noon clocked by on Saturday, Ellie was certain her New Year's headache would last forever. A box of painkillers had been little help and Adam still wasn't talking to her. So by the time she got to the gym for her first workout of the year, Ellie wanted it to hurt. Luckily for her, she was just the girl for the job.

CHANNELED MESSAGE FROM THE WHALES

We live in a deeper level of reality than most of the life forms on Earth, and we understand the larger picture. We are masters of expanded states of awareness, which include more complex dimensions beyond your own. Within these realms, we see sub-atomic particles as part of a greater whole, which is holographic and indivisible. We are involved in examining multiform pictures that we create and that are also created by you. We understand how these pictures create reality on Earth. We experience these images while awake and while in dreamtime. For us, the line between the two states is very tenuous. We reside within a peaceful, tranquil, surrealistic state.

By having our mind clear and blank, we can hear and examine messages from the greater Universe. In this way we can re-formulate, re-invent and re-create reality. This creation begins with pure Light, which vibrates like music. It has harmonics just like music and as whales we hear it singing to us. Matter dissolves into octaves of Light and it is from this Light that all is created.

Most human minds are filled with thoughts. Thinking continuously has led to confusion and blocked out the true state of bliss. We do not experience this confusion. We remain in a state of Love. In our presence, you experience that Love. It is your nature too. That is why you are drawn to us. For that reason, and also because we have a mutual purpose on Earth. We are all here as caretakers for this very special planet. You are here to preserve and work with the physical matter of this planet and to spiritualize it. We work with grid lines and meridians, with energy fields and basic spiritual energy patterns that ensure unity among all life forms.

- Whale Nation
February 2002

The Type, by Sarah Kay

If you grow up the type of woman men want to look at,
You can let them look at you.
Do not mistake eyes for hands or windows or mirrors.
Let them see what a woman looks like.
They may not have ever seen one before.

If you grow up the type of woman men want to touch,
You can let them touch you.
Sometimes, it is not you they are reaching for.
Sometimes it is a bottle, a door, a sandwich, a Pulitzer — another woman.
But their hands found you first.
Do not mistake yourself for a guardian or a muse or a promise or a victim or a snack.
You are a woman — skin and bones, veins and nerves, hair and sweat.
You are not made out of metaphors, not apologies, not excuses.

If you grow up the type of woman men want to hold,
You can let them hold you.
All day they practice keeping their bodies upright.
Even after all this evolving it still feels unnatural.
Still strains the muscles, hold firms the arms and spine.
Only some men will want to learn what it feels like to curl themselves into a question mark around you,
Admit they do not have the answers they thought they would by now.
Some men will want to hold you like the answer.
You are not the answer.
You are not the problem.
You are not the poem or the punch-line or the riddle or the joke.

Woman, if you grow up the type men want to love,
You can let them love you.
Being loved is not the same thing as loving.
When you fall in love, it is discovering the ocean after years of puddle jumping.
It is realizing you have hands.
It is reaching for the tightrope when the crowds have all gone home.

Do not spend time wondering if you are the type of women men will hurt.
If he leaves you with a car alarm heart, you may learn to sing along.
It is hard to stop loving the ocean even after it has left you gasping — "salty."
So forgive yourself for the decisions you've made.
The ones you still call mistakes when you tuck them in at night and know this:
Know you are the type of woman who is searching for a place to call yours.
Let the statues crumble.
You have always been the place.
You are a woman who can build it yourself.
You were born to build.

Accommodations

Windfall villas: a haven for relaxation; beautiful, modern, yet authentically Caribbean. A place to get away from life's stressors and back to what's important; fun and wellness. Housekeeper, gardener and airport transportation included in rate.

Sometimes she felt like a self-help book, filled with pretty words and empty meanings. Her lips shaped pseudo life wisdom that she desperately clung to as the answer.

The phrases rolled over her tongue with conviction. But as she spoke of inner peace, Ellie felt turmoil. Gratitude was dulled by her inability to forgive her past—her decisions, her beliefs, the behavior patterns she still reproduced.

Learning the theory did not translate into ease of practice. On good days, she fumbled with self-worth. On bad days, there were only memories. Those were the days she recited the words she'd had parroted at her for years.

"You are worthy. You are enough. You are not a victim, not a rescuer, not a persecutor. You are who you choose to be."

Ellie wondered if it was this hard for everyone. Of course, "comparison was a trap of the ego." And there it was, a full inner dialogue with self-help quotes she wished she'd never heard.

On days like today, when reality crashed against the precarious balance of her self-esteem, Ellie focused on breathing. The rhythmic rise and fall of her chest, the slow count to eight as she visualized the words.

In

     ha

           le.

           Ex

     ha

le.

It didn't always work, but she went over the script until the words were imprinted behind her eyelids.

"You are worthy. You are enough. You are not a victim, not a rescuer, not a persecutor. You are who you choose to be."

When all else failed, she reminded herself that she was the only one who had to believe it for it to be true.

What is a Soulmate?

Pop culture would have us believe that a soulmate is the perfect romantic partner. While it’s true that soulmates can make the best partners, the pairing isn’t necessarily intimate, romantic or sexual in nature. Soulmates can play any role in your life including family members, colleagues, schoolmates, neighbours, strangers and yes, lovers. A soulmate is a person whose soul has a strong connection to your soul. Soulmate connections can be described in one of three ways: soul families, soul groups and twin flames. These groups are like branches a very large tree. The tree is Source/Spirit, and we are all part of it. That means your soulmates are actually you at a higher vibration. While in human form, we resonate more strongly with souls who are on the same branch due to our similarities and shared backgrounds. In truth, we are all soulmates, but those souls who are closest to us evoke the strongest soul memories.

 

Soul Family

Your soul family is the spiritual equivalent to your birth family here on Earth. They may take the form of a relative here on Earth, or could be anyone in your life. When you meet them, they feel like your siblings, parents or children. You and your soul family share the same over-soul, so you are all aspects of the same soul.

Purpose

A soul family’s purpose is to love, nurture, support, guide, protect and help you. Soul family members help align you with your soul’s purpose, and will accelerate your spiritual growth.

Connections

Soul families are like human families. Within the large family tree, there are smaller groupings of souls, who form core family units.

Chance of Meeting

If you have soul family incarnated on Earth, then the chance of meeting is strong. Spiritually, you will be aware of each other, and will be intuitively drawn together. It may take many years, but when the time is right you will come together.

Recognition

Sparks fly when you connect with soul family. If there’s a sexual attraction, then these connections can be very exciting and passionate. Other times, the connection is more familial, one of instant kinship. No matter the nature of the connection, you will love them, and want to be with them, from the instant you meet.

Relationship

Soul family connections are the most loving, supportive, nurturing and compassionate on Earth. The connection is hugely powerful and undeniable. You two will be drawn together by forces stronger than any Earthly conditions (i.e. gender, age, marital status). You may express the connection in a romantic coupling, or by becoming the very best of friends. This person will always feel like family.

Duration

Soul family relationships have the greatest longevity. Of any relationship, this is the one that will last a lifetime (and beyond). The connection provides such amazing love and support, that no other relationship can surpass.

 

Soul Group

A soul group is akin to your Earthly friends, classmates and coworkers. Soul group member meetings are often triggered by significant life events, or they act as a catalyst for major life changes.

Purpose

Your soul group members are working on the same life assignments as you so they have matching or complimentary life themes. They come into your life in order to help you achieve a shared spiritual objective.

Connections

You have plenty of soul group members. It’s likely that many of your soul group are incarnated here on Earth at this time.

Chance of Meeting

Chances are excellent that you have already met at least one of your soul group members. The more spiritually in tune you are, the more of these connections you will make.

Recognition

There’s a slightly more intense connection with soul family members than with your soul group, but both elicit powerfully positive feelings and loving intuitive memories of Home. Your soul group members instantly feel familiar and safe to you. You may find yourself sharing private details of your life with a stranger on a plane. Maybe it’s someone you met in a store who recommended a life-changing book, or it could be the person you’ve just met who feels like a long-lost friend. However the connection happens, it will change you in a positive way.

Relationship

Soul group members come into your life at significant times in order to assist you with your life’s purpose. These meetings help to fuel your spiritual growth, along with assisting you with making huge leaps forward in your life. Soul group members can play almost any role in life: best friend, your partner, a family member, a neighbour, a workmate, or someone whom you chanced to meet in passing. They help you to remember why you’re here on Earth, and what you hoped to accomplish.

Duration

Due to the purpose-driven nature of these connections, these relationships may not last. No matter how short- or long-lived, these encounters always serve a higher purpose.

 

Twin Flame

A twin flame is a very special soulmate connection. You share the same immediate over-soul. In order to create polarity consciousness on 3-D Earth, your over-soul chose two separate expressions of itself, one male and one female, each perfectly balanced and complementary to the other. The two soul aspects may incarnate together, or one may remain on the Other Side (next dimensional level) while the other descends into this level of consciousness. You and your twin flame are perfectly complementary, like two sides of the same coin. These two individuals, possessing the same soul, are intuitively aware of each other, and spend a lifetime looking for the other.

Purpose

Your twin flame acts as a guide and ballast, giving you both direction and balance while you are here in physical form. For instance, if you are female, or embody female characteristics, then your twin flame is comprised of male characteristics. You are perfect expressions of yin-yang energies. Your twin will push and pull you through learning curves. A meeting with your twin here on Earth would profoundly accelerate your spiritual growth.

Connections

The soul is multidimensional and therefore has multiple twin flames; however, the portion of your soul that is incarnated here has only one twin flame.

Chance of Meeting

It used to be rare to have both halves of the over-soul incarnated here on Earth at the same time, but that’s changing. With our imminent expansion of consciousness into 5D, more twin flames are choosing to reunite here on Earth. Still, the chance of meeting your twin flame is slim. That doesn’t mean you can’t connect with your twin flame via spiritual methods.

Recognition

Immediate, undeniable, powerful soul recognition occurs when encountering one’s twin flame. This soul is your mirror image.

Relationship

You cannot hide anything from your twin flame. All aspects of your being, both light and dark, are transparent to your twin. That means anything that isn’t resolved, healed or in balance will rise to the surface when you’re together. This can be overwhelmingly intense if you haven’t worked through your issues before meeting your twin. That’s why most twins have chosen not to incarnate together.

Duration

The twin flame connection transcends this Earthly realm and is therefore absolutely permanent. That being said, twin flame relationships here on Earth do not always last due to the intensity of the bond and the yin-yang nature of your two souls. The duration, therefore, depends greatly on timing and soul preparation.